Changable Destitation

WRITER : M. ZIEN HAFIDZ

CHANGEABLE DESTINATION

A  month more, i would graduate my vocational school. It was confusing me. I still wavered whether  i continued my study in Malang or Surabaya. And it was also thought by my friends. Like others day, i went to school with my friends. I left home around 06.00 am. On the way, i met friends who were in different school and i made greeting to them. At 06.35 am, i came in my school. I directly met and gathered with my friends. Separately, i tried to talk with my classmate who named Pebri.

“Peb, what do you plan after graduating your school?” I asked

“I think  i will continue my study in Malang.” He said

“Oo, that’s good.”

“What about you?” He asked me

“About me? I’m so sorry. I’m still confused whether i take my study in Malang or Surabaya.” I answered.

The bel was ringing, it was the time to enter the class. In the class, i also consulted with among of my friends about my problem. At that time, i had a view to continue my study in Malang. After finishing my class, i went to the warnet to look for the information when SNMPTN would open. But, the one problem was coming at that time. Actually there were two categories namely education and technique.

A week later, i met my close friend who named Afifah. I told all of my problems to her and he gave me a good suggestion. She suggested that i had to take education because the next it would be useful. She also had reason if i took a technique it would be difficult for me because the schedule was so busy.

After i got my view, i visited Pebri’s Home to discuss SNMPTN Registration. There, i met my friend Deden. Then, we discussed together what we must complete to register in SNMPTN because it would open in the middle of June. I still remembered the date when i came to Malang for the first time exactly on June 19^th, 2009. And i got a ride with Afifah that time. There, we missed the way and we got traffic ticket from the police. We had made the fault because we broke through in same direction. Then, my friend Pebri had idea because of this problem. He asked to the police to take us at UIN Malang where it was the place for registration SNMPTN. And i did not guess the police wanted to take us to that place. After coming there, we directly registered and gave the regulations to the committee.

While we were going home from UIN, Deden invited us to enjoy the town of Malang. I thought it was a amazing chance. Besides, i never knew about Malang and surroundings. The one direction which we would visit was Malang Town Square. It was not Matos as you guessed, but it was the real town square of Malang. After passing partly of Malang town, we decided to go home and we came in home at 07.00 pm.

In the first of July, i was getting SNMPTN Examination. My place for examination was separated with my friends ( Pebri, Deden, and Afifah). During the examination, i could do the questions well. But, i was not sure those had been true or false. I only prayed to God about my examination.  

The first of August, announcement for SNMPTN Examination opened. I went to the warnet to get information. When i typed my examination number, manifestly i passed the examination.

Unfortunately, i was received but it was not appropriate with my choice. I was shocked at that time. Yet, i had to think positively what i did after getting this complication. In afternoon, i gathered with my friends. We met in our school.

“Peb, what about your announcement?” I asked

“wonderful brother. I thought i failed the exam.” He said

“Luckyly, i passed my examination.” Afifah said

“That is good.” I wondered

“and you?” They asked

“Yes, i passed my exam. But my major was not appropriate with my choice. It’s so complicated friends.” I answered

At different time, i met afifah to talk about my SNMPTN. She suggested that i had to take the major which it had passed. I said to her that i would not take that major because i disliked it. And she also had reason that it was a special chance. He told me that i might not pass the exam if i took SNMPTN again. It also made me hesitant about my choice. But, i had had decision not to take my major that it was not choice of my deepest heart.

I was alone. I did not know what to do. I thought if i did not continue my study, it made my education during i took would not be useful. I consulted my problem to my parents. They just said they would allow whatever my choice was. And i was getting confused because of it. After thinking deeply, i got certainty that i would continue my study next year. And it meant i should have activity for a year.

Maybe at that time, my friends were busy to take care of their study. Afifah continued her study in Malang. Pebri and Deden continued their study in Surabaya. Afifah actually wanted me to continue my study in Malang. She wanted it because she would have a friend who had known her before and also became close friend. But, it was imposible for me because my major was not appropriate with my choice. I said to her that the distance would not block our friendship.

Here, i thought my struggle began. I asked and shared to my family what to do during a year. Some of them suggested that i had to take course. Then, i look for the information on internet and by people. In Kediri, there was a english village exactly in Pare. In the end of October, i came there and i looked for the boarding house. Almost an hour i looked for it, finally i found the boarding house that there was place for a dweller more. There, i got friends who came from many regions. I thought there was a different ambience which it made me spirit running my life. I had a roommate who named Bakar. We took  the same course so that we could study together anytime.

At course, my friends had many backgrounds, there was a student of university, employee, teacher and so on. And it convinced me that we had to study anything that it might change our life for the next. If i had spare time, i usually went to somewhere with my boarding house’s friends to refresh our mind. We did it because we had a full schedule everyday. But, it was so pleasing for me.

The togetherness among of the dwellers of boarding house were so chummy. We usually played futsal twice a week. In boarding house, there was a activity which it was called study club. Here, we usually made discussion among of dwellers. Maybe, i could call it as presentation.

I had been there for six months. And my course was done. I would go home because i had to prepare my study to continue at university. I thought that if i just got knowledge from Pare, it was not enough for me. There would be hard rivalry next in my life. Besides, i had had decision when i did not take my major last year, i would continue my study next year and it meant this year. During at home, i tried to breed gurami fish and farm star fruit. Because i had no activity at home that it connected about study, it made me bored. I spent my days to cope those activities. I felt so busy in doing my activities. Because of it, i ever forgot about my purpose namely continuing my study.

I began reducing my activities and tried to focus on my study. I started studying the lesson that i might get in examination. If i had difficulty, i asked to my friends. I felt lazy studying alone, but i had to force my self to do it. I was thingking at that time how to solve my problem so that i had idea. My idea was if i was on laziness, i would do my activities that i had done before. But, it did not mean that i prioritised my activities more than my study.

When i had spare time, i visited Pebri’s home. I thought he was different more  than before. It could be known from his appearance, how the way he spoke and so on. When we talked together, he said that studying at university was so amazing. And he also said that it would make us thinking deeply about everything. While he was saying it, my intention became on fire. But, he told me that studing at university had many defiance. Those were not only studying hardly, but also avoiding bad intercourse and we could cope it if we had a basic in our life.

Advices from Pebri realized me that to reach our aim was not easy. It depended on our struggle. He also told me that at university we might not wait the expalanation from the lecturer, but we were forced to study first before being explained. Because of getting the dark, I permitted to go home.

When I was in home, I told my mother that I would continue my study in Malang and I had contacted my friend. At that time, I thought my mother was shocked.

“ Fid, actually I permit you studying in Malang, but if you continue your study in Malang, who will help me and handle the activities?” my mother said.

After thinking a minutes

Then i said to my mother” Yes, I think you are all right, and if I continue my study there, no one will help you.”

“ But if you continue around here, I will permit you absolutely!” my mother said.

Really, actually I felt disappointed the answer from my mother. Besides, it had been my dream studying there. But, I had to think positively. And I was just sure that what my mother had said would be useful specially for me. I still remembered It spent long tome to receive the advices from my mother.

I ever thought that I would stop my study. I did it because my mind was blank. If I did not continue my study in Malang, it meant I stopped my study.

Because I canceled to study in Malang, so I wanted to elect the college in my town. There were so many college in my town and it made me getting confused to elect them. I thought I had to take education. There were two choices namely STKIP PGRI and STAIN. At STKIP, I would have time more spare time because I would get class in afternoon. But, the disadvantage was I would be idle in the morning and I guessed it would be boring. If at STAIN, I would have full time in studying and I thought it woud be pleasing. So, my decision was at STAIN to continue my study.

I tried to look for information about STAIN. I looked for information when the registration would open and also what I need in regulations. Because I was graduated last year at that time, I was asked to look for SKCK to the headquartes about my behavior. At STAIN, I planned to choose english education. I chose it because I had known about english although it was just little. The first, I ever planned to choose Arabic. But, I canceled it because I never learned Arabic and also I had no background before.

When the registration was opening, I registered by my self. Here, I joined SPMB program. After finishing my registration, I took a walk around campus. While walking to canteen, I met my friend when I was on elementary school. His name was Udin. We were surprised cause we never met each other for long time.

“ Hi, what’s up friend?” I said

“ I’m OK brother. Why are u here?” Udin Said

“ You don’t know why I’m here. I will tell you that I will be the student of this colllege friend.” I said while smiling.

“ Really, it sounds great brother.” Udin answered

“ Wish me luck brother”. I said

“ Of course, and good luck for you!. He said

“ thank you friend.” I said

Then we leaved each other.

It was Tuesday, i had SPMB examination. I only wished that I could do the examination well. At 08.00 am, I was on class doing the exam. I thought the questions were not so difficult and I could finish all of the questions. I had done the exam and the announcement would be announced a week later. So, I only could wait and wait.

The time that I was waiting had come. At 11.00 am, I came in campus. The situation was very crowded. The people gathered in board announcement and it disturbed me to look for my name. so, I sat under the tree and waited the situation quiet. I just wished I could pass the exam. After the situation was getting calm, then I tried to look for my name. a seconds later, finally I found my name and it meant I passed my exam.

I was so glad because I could pass the exam and would learn at STAIN. The first day while I was getting a class, I introduced my self to one another. I thought I got many friends who had pleasing characters. Then we talked about address, our background and so on.

When I was joining a grammar subject, the lecturer told that we had to think more different than Senior High School because we were in education place that had level as equal as university. Studying at College was not only signing attendance and presenting paper, but  also having skills. But, it was impossible to be reached without having hard effort. That was amazing day for me. My lecturer gave advice that it was very worth.

Day after day I passed at STAIN. There, I got knowledge, experience and everything. The obstacles always came and came. But, it was not only having obstacles in study, but also having obstacles in intercourse. During at STAIN, I got many advices from the lecturers that conviced me those were for our goodness. Now, I have been fourth semester and will be fifth semester. Hopefully, I can run and finish my study well. Just be sure that whatever the obstacles we can face and cope it. We must remember that life is never flat and only do the best for everyone.

That is a journey in my life right now. Sometimes, I think I am not wise in solving problem. So, during this time I am still studying and learning about everything.