You Are Mine

WRITER : LATIFATUZ ZAHRO'

You Are Mine

Today was my first day to go to campus after holiday. I didn’t believe that I was in the same class with Steve. We met at the first time in Selena’s birthday party. He sang a song to comfort Selena. He had an amazing voice and cool. He was the only son of our college president. With his dad’s support, he kept coming up. With a good body and basketball, he led a group of basketball. When he was in the high school, he got very much appreciation. But, there was no perfect person in the word. His mother died when he was young. He lived with his father.

Kring…kring….kring…. The lecturer finished the class. I decided to go to library and I borrowed book so much. It was difficult to bring these books. A boy beside me said ‘May I help you?’ Then I replied ‘Sure’. He took three of books over my hand. When I looked his face, I was surprised. He was Steve and I was nervous. He gazed my eyes. I didn’t feel like this way before. May be I was falling in love with him.

‘Thanks you so much. You are Steve, right? By the way, I’m…’

‘Giselle’ He carried on my say. Then he went away.

I was very happy because he knew my name. It felt like eating the sweetest donuts, having a flying through the clouds and flying stars on my head. I couldn’t endure my lips to smile. After I went to my home, I phoned my closer friend, Shella. I tell her about my feeling. She gave me support to be with him. Actually, I was not confident to ask Steve out with me. Because of my friend gave me suggestion and she was optimist about it, I felt that I should effort to get him.

This morning was so wonderful. I took my books which was I borrowed yesterday. Suddenly, I remembered Steve. I asked in my mind about did he feels the same as my feeling. My heart beating, when I was thinking about him. Then my mom teased me;

‘Giselle, why are you smiling like that? Do you think about someone? Am I know about who is he?’

‘Mom, don’t tease me, I just want to smile, nothing else’ I replied.

‘Your mother is ever young too, don’t lay to your mom, honey’ my mom answered.

‘I think, I’m falling in love with someone, but I’m not confident to be with him, he is over perfect for me’ my face looked unhappy.

‘Love does not look for society and property, love is inside your heart’ my mom gave me spirit, she also felt happy about my feeling.

            Now I could spirit to go to campus. In the class, the lecturer asked the students to make a group of drama. It was one of the project of extensive speaking. A group consisted of seven students. The winner of drama in the class would perform in college birthday party. I was in the same group with Steve. I asked my closer friend, Shella ‘I’m in the same group with him, Shella. Is it destiny?’ She replied ’May be, you should happy, girl. You must let him know about your feeling, you must tell him.’ I worried to answer’ I’m afraid to know the truth, I’m afraid if he doesn’t like me. Shella told to not worry about his answer because the important thing was to know his feeling. I thought about Shella’s suggestion. May be, it was the right thing because I didn’t want to save this feeling so long. I was not concentration my lesson in the class if I saved my feeling like this.

            After bell rung, I waited Steve in front of the door. I asked him ‘Do you remember me? Yesterday, you helped me to bring my book.’ He answered my question with walking ’Yes, what’s wrong?’ Then I said ‘I want to tell you about something.’ He replied ‘Really! Tell me please. I said with a low voice ‘I like you for a long time’ He didn’t hear what I say. Then he asked me to speak loudly. So, I speak loudly to him. He said that he didn’t believe what I say because he should have said it first. He thought, before I liked him, he already liked me. He asked me to be his girlfriend. My heart was beating so fast. I didn’t believe that it was not dream. It was like I was burning an eternal flame. Everything looked beautiful in my eyes. I hoped time was stopped because I don’t want to lose this feeling. I walked together with Steve. He accompanied me until in front of my home. Then he said good bye to me.

            I wanted to tell my mother what happened today. But, there was something strange with my mother. She faced a hard situation. She told me that she was proposed marriage by my college president, Mr. Hendry. They loved each other. But, my mother didn’t want to marriage if I didn’t give her permission. I never saw my mother falling in love after the death of my father. She was never tired to treat me and she didn’t think about her life. She just thought about me. So, I agreed if my mother married again. I wanted my mother happy. Actually, this was so hard to accept Steve became my sibling. But, I had no choice. I never supposed my love story became complicated.

            Inside of my heart became smashed. I couldn’t smile again. I didn’t know what to do. After the class, Steve asked me to go out. We shopped something in the super market; he bought me a funny doll. We ate ice cream with walking together. At that time, I was lucky and cheerful, and I forgot about my mother’s problem. In the road, we saw oracle. She asked us to predict our future. Then Steve took some pokers. Before the oracle would tell our future, Steve’s hand phone rang. His father asked him to go home soon. A few minutes later, my mother phoned me. She told that Mr. Hendry invited us to dinner. So, we cancelled to hear oracle’s said.

            Tonight was a disaster. My mother looked very happy and I felt wrong to her and Steve. I couldn’t imagine his expression next. My mother and I were picked up by the driver of Mr. Hendry. In the restaurant, I sat beside Steve. His expression was weird. He wanted to rebellious our parent’s marriage. But, he restrained it. I acted like we didn’t know each other. Actually, I didn’t want to do this kind of relationship. I just didn’t want to make my mother worried. Suddenly, Steve wanted to go to bathroom. I supposed that he was angry with me. So, I went to meet him. I asked his forgiveness. He asked me:

            ‘Why you act we don’t know each other? What is the meaning of our relationship for you?’ His face looked angry.

‘I just don’t want to make my mother worried. I love you. But, I want my mother happy too. I never see her so happy before. She always thinks about me, and now she finds someone who loves her. I can’t shatter her will.’ My tears fall down.

’I don’t want you become my sibling. I want you become my girlfriend. I’ll say to our parent if we are a couple.’ He said loudly.

I opposed his say ‘No, you don’t, please understand me.’

            Steve was not in a good mood. He leaved me and came back to his seat. He was just silent and I asked him to smile. He ignored me. His father was friendly and cute. Mr. Hendry asked me to get on so well with Steve. He told us when he met with my mother and fall in love with her. He said that she was beautiful and careless. She spilled ice cream in his shoes. Then they introduced each other. It was a funny story.

            The rumor about our parent’s marriage disseminated. A lot of students in the campus talked about Steve and me that we would be sibling. This rumor made me uncomfortable. In the class, when we selected to become a couple in our drama’s group, Bella disagreed about it. I knew she liked Steve and she wanted to be a couple with him in drama. She asked me to help her. So, I let her to become the main character in drama. Knowing Bella became the main character, Steve was angry and made me became his couple again in drama. He was selfish and frightened me at that time. He just wanted me, nothing else. A few days later, we performed our drama. Our team worked properly.

            Bella was suspicious about my relationship with Steve. She asked me about it. I said that we just would be sibling, so he acted like my big brother. She still wanted Steve to become her boyfriend, although she knew that Steve didn’t like her. She asked me to convince Steve about it and gave her letter to him. When I said yes to Bella, my heart was hurt. I went to bathroom and cried alone. It was difficult for me to convince him about Bella. If I make her to be with Steve, I thought maybe he could forget me and we could be really sibling and our parent could continue their marriage without any troubles.

            I called Steve to the garden behind college. I gave him Bella’s letter and asked him to accept it. I said that she loved him so much. She was good and kind. Steve was angry and threw the letter without read it first. I said ‘Why did you do that? That letter is full of her hope and affection for you?’ He replied ‘You are a pigeon head, that’s why I don’t want it.’ I said angrily too ‘If you don’t have to accept it, it will disappoint her, but what you did will hurt her feeling.’ He held my hand and said he would read the letter, but he didn’t want me to do something like this again. He said that he didn’t want to make me hurt.

            Steve met Bella in front of class. He asked her to not love him anymore, because he didn’t have feeling to her. He made clear this problem. Bella understood about it. She just wanted Steve to know that her heart thumped hard for the first time she met Steve. It was enough for her. She said that she knew Steve loved me since he made me become main character in drama with him.               

            Now I knew that Steve loved me very much. I should happy about it. But, I worried if we were not to be a couple in the end. I went home in the afternoon. My mother was clean and beautiful. She had a date with Mr. Hendry. So, I stayed in home alone tonight. I just day dreamed about Steve and suddenly there was people knocked the door. It made me surprise. I opened the door and it was Steve. He breached in my kitchen and asked meals. There was no meal in my refrigerator. He asked me to buy some meals and cook it. After I cooked the meal, we eat together. He said that the taste was odd. A few minutes later, he went before my mother come.

            My mother said that her marriage would be hold two months later. Mr. Hendry invited us to picnic with his family in Saturday. He wanted to make our family closer with his family. I prepared what I wanted to bring in picnic. Mr. Hendry and Steve picked up us in the morning. In the journey, we were got caprice and laugh together. I liked this moment. After we arrived, my mother and Steve’s father had fun walked together and Steve with me rode role coaster and other game. We took picture together. I said ‘This picture is so sweet’ Steve looked and said ‘This is so sweet because I’m with you, you are very beautiful’ I so touched with his say.

            Our parent came to us, and we took picture together. Then we ate in the restaurant. Mr. Hendry said ‘Are you two are happy?’ I replied ‘Yes, we enjoyed this day, thank you Mr. Hendry’ Mr. Hendry asked me to not call him by his name, but call him daddy, then I called him daddy. I knew Steve disliked this moment because he still didn’t want our parent’s marriage.   

              I kept silent in the class, I couldn’t think limpidly, the lecturer came and gave the important announcement, and he said that our drama team selected to perform in college’s birthday party. Shella knew that I was not in a good mood. She asked me’

‘Are you not happy? What’s wrong with you? Tell me if you have a problem’

‘I didn’t know what to do, Shella, our parent would marriage soon but I still want Steve become my boyfriend, I can’t lose this feeling.’ My eyes were blear-eyed.        

‘I know you really love him so much, you must tell your mother about it. I’m sure your mother will understand.’ Shella was worried about me.

              Shella’s say was imagined in my mind. Suddenly my telephone rang, Steve phoned me. So, I answer it. He asked me to training the drama in campus now. He picked me up by motorcycle. We got caprice and laugh together in the trip. It made me comfortable. After we arrived, we were training drama until 6 pm.

            A week later, our campus held birthday party. The students were very noisy to merry this party. I was nervous. Then Steve came to me and gave spirit. He made me comfortable. So, I was not nervous again. We performed as a couple in the drama. When we acted Romeo and Juliet, I couldn’t control my feeling. It liked in my real life. I couldn’t restrain my feeling. I couldn’t see another people except Steve. Our performance got successful. The participants clapped their hands loudly. There were also a lot of student’s parent came to celebrate the party. After drama, I ran to the garden behind college. I was sick of this love.     

            ‘Giselle…Giselle…’ Steve ran after me.

            ‘I don’t know what’s wrong or right anymore, but I can’t keep lying. In this continues, there’s no way we can be a family.’ My tears fell down.

            ‘Can I tell our parent, ask them to let you be with me’ He embraced me.

            My mother heard our conversation. I didn’t know that my mother looked for me after drama. She was shock and stupor. Steve brought her to the hospital. I was worried about her. Mr. Hendry came and told me to not be sad. He believed my mother, Cathy would be fine. The doctor said that my mother was shock and tired, she just needed much rest. Then we went to my mother’s room. My mother said angrily to me. ‘Don’t you know what are you doing?’ Then I said ‘Mom, even you don’t forgive me, I still have to tell you. I like Steve.’ Steve continued my say ‘Giselle has been struggling with this for a long time because she is always thinking of you, we’re selfish but would you at least understand the process? Her daughter concerns for you’ My mother was upset ‘I need time to think about this’ My mother asked me and Steve to leave. Mr. Hendry and my mother talked in the room.

            Steve and I waited in front of room. We didn’t know what they were talking about. My heart didn’t hurt again because I had told mom that’s on my mind. Although we were still worried if they opposed us, we would persuade them until they accepted us. Mr. Hendry asked us to go home. He said that they would give the answer after my mother healthy. So, we came back home first.

            My mother was healthy. She was brought home by Mr. Hendry. She didn’t talk anything to me in home. I felt sorry for her. Two days later, Mr. Hendry invited us to dinner. After we ate together, my mother said to me that she had thought about me and Steve. She said that I had reached an age when I fall in love with others and the other person would become her son. Whenever she thought about me holding such a big secret inside, I must had suffered. She felt bad for me. So, my mother and Steve’s father decided to bless our relationship, but they unchanged their decision to marriage.

I couldn’t understand about it. Then Mr. Hendry said that Steve was not really his son. He adopted him when he was baby because his wife was barren and she couldn’t pregnant. His wife loved Steve so much. Before she died, she asked him to not tell Steve about it. She didn’t want to make Steve sad. But, now Mr. Hendry told about it. He thought, maybe it was a good choice to make him happy, because he also loved him as his real son.

            Steve and I was surprise about this story. Steve didn’t know this story too. So, we continued our relationship. I asked my mother ‘Why you didn’t talk to me in home? I was afraid if she would leave me yesterday.’ She replied and smiled ‘It because I want to give you surprise, honey.’ We were very happy. I would never forget this day. It was a big thing in my life. Steve said to me ‘You are mine’ I was smile and said ‘You are mine too.’ We thanked to God because of his love, we became a couple.

After our parent’s marriage, 5 months later we graduated from our college, then we marriage on 16 June 2012. In the end, we lived everyday loving and being loved, living a magical life. Being love may be liked managing garden. May your gardens have pretty flowers that bloom, brilliant rays of sunshine and sometimes magical rain. Every love story had a problem, and I solved my problem. I thought love was amazing.        

              

THE END