The Misty of Love

1

Reunion in Kediri

In 2010 the precisely in the month of Ramadhan. Ramadhan is the time to walk to day -3. Suddenly my phone rang. After my old friend turns up, he was named Ila. Friends from elementary school in earlier times. We talked about the reunion in Kediri. Precisely in the city of Kediri, in other wordsthe hometown of my childhood he he he. We got a call from jokingjoking with her. Because we have not seen and I also miss my friends the other. Ila is also said to me, she hard to find my address now.
          I explained to him that, I was not live in Kediri. Now my mother's and father’s had come overdo. It used to leave my mother's and father’s is overseas to raise money. So, I left at grandma's house. I am old grandmother, who helped care for me is Auntie. He was very nice to me. He was already regarded as my own mother. He always advised me if it made a mistake and he always concern me. He never complained in the care of me. I was also very lovely. Yes,  here's a little story first days of my childhood.
          At 10:00 AM, coinciding with the feast of the three, I went to the city in Kediri. I went there with my friends. My best friend the name is Mia. She was my friend from high school. She was very good. She is a friend who is always there when I was trouble. Wherever I went to traveling, she always with me. We have been very close friend. As if we are brothers.
          Because my grandmother very much, so we went with the early morning. One of the most interesting is the reunion place close to grandmother's house. So we might as well stop to rest and pray there.

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Ike’s House

          Reunion was held at 4:00 p.m. Finally,we went there. Reunion was held at the venue of my friends house. Her name is Ike. She went to Malang. Once when at the elementary school, he was a friend of my classes. I still remember his home address. Back when I was in grade school are invited to go home. And that if a break. I was invited to eat at home. Her mother was very kind to me.
          Arriving there we were greeted well by his parents. His mother is very good especially as she forgot me. Ike hugged me and longing for release that do not meet such a long time of several years. Furthermore, we welcome to come in and sit down. But the atmosphere is very quiet house. My assumption is it was enough reunion. And Ike explained to me that the reunion has not yet begun. Apparently, I came earlier than other friends.
          Not long after, friends reunion came and went Ike’s house. Friends who attended after I called Linda. We hugged him or her. Then we talked. I was also almost forgot their name. Understandable,  because we were separated for 6 years. She became more beautiful and mature. Linda is not only the premises that I did not recognize, a lot of other friends too. Hemmmmm..............end we introduce ourselves to each other, as if we had never met before.
          The event has finished chat. Many of my friends who attended elementary school in the Reunion event. Suddenly, I saw one of your elementary school. He sat in a chair and talked with a female friend. My little heart suddenly wanted to ask him or her. But seemed embarrassed and my mouth went numb for say. It's as if my heart when I see drifting. Shortly thereafter, he suddenly turned to me. He asked the name of me. Not only asked about the name, but he also asked me about my current address, school etc. And I also asked to return the name, and location of school. Finally, we know each other. Though he had a grade-school friend in elementary school. When we speak - he's also good to him or her to ask him a everthing with me. He asked about my name, where my school now and the place where I school.

3

Reunion was Started

          At 04.00 p.m minutes my friend the name is Ila started this reunion. This reunion is simple. But the most fun is being able togather-together with friends when the first in elementary school. Reunion prepared with the opening, meals, exchange no HP, prayer, closing, the next take a photo together.
          Event Leader opening can speak by Tofa and for reading the prayer led by Huda. After the event  finished open immediately followed by a bite to eat. This is the most time I wait he he he he. After the meal-feeding rates finished next event is no HP and all of my friends wrote in the book. All friends shall write no telephone. To save time event directly followed by a prayer, led by Huda. All still and listen to prayers with wisdom. Alhamdulillah that all enough and live show again that the closing ceremony and groups photo togethers.
Photo with Ike was done on the home. Please understand maybe it was getting late so the picture is a mess. In the evening, I can get anymore. My friends are planning to take a walk. But I did not participate. Because my house is the farthest away from other friends. Precisely in the district in Ngunut.

4

My Friendship

          At that time I also asked Huda to ask about the plan's streets. He did know about it. Because he hurried to go to Jember. Tomorrow is a feast to -5. In the evening he told me that he went to Jember at night. Before he left for Jember, hours one night he told me via mesagge, that he is on the way. I do not know the sms from him at that time. When I wake up he replay the message. When reading the message that I was very sad. But I tried to sincere gone. He went merely studying for junior fashion. I can only hope and pray to him. And my other hope is my hope back to him or her.
          Our friendship has not ended up here. We also exchanged FB (read: FACEBOOK) he he. Ordinary advances in technology. Let not clueless about the term. "With a low tone". Once a month every communication we never broke up. He was very considerate to me, as well as me. Sometimes our communication with each other in a fight. Understandably we are the same age, so the emotion is still holding steady.
          Communication we walked for about 3 years old, up to now we rarely communicate know. But as ever. Because we understand each other own activities. Many of the tasks that have not finished at campus. Our relationship is getting closer for so long. We decided to become close friends. Because often many of our communication is sometimes a missunderstanding between each other. Our life together, so if a fight is often no one wants to budge between others. After the fight we decided the friendship was over a year. We can not fool our own feelings. We actually love each other. But we were never honest with each other. After the breakup of one year, we went back again. We forgive each other. And finally, we open our hearts to continue the relationship until recently.
          The distance that separates our relationship. Even though we are far away, separated by space and time we possessed a very strong inner contact. We can keep the secret well. Because our relationship is only limited to friends, can not be more than that. Over time our relationship began to close. Our closeness beyond friendship. We like to have a close inner contact, but we still keep it a secret. Because our relationship is just as friends. Could not be more than that.

5

Relationship

          At the moment our relationship with Huda is growing. There is a male figure who tried to approach me. But I still respond to normal. Because the man is a fellow soldier. Almost every day I meet him or her. Actually I already know that men have a purpose for me. Not that I brave or whatever, it's an honest conscience of him who said to me. I think it might have felt when he was half a ago. But I still do not care about her. Sometimes I feel sorry for him.
          Business man does not stop here. It turned out that until now she still da flavor for me. He tried to approach me. When sitting in the class, he always wanted to sit near him or her. He was still trying to find a place for him to sit down with me. The man was willing to do anything to be able to sit close to me. Especially if you sit with your friends. He always praised to me.  WhenI wear everything is always praised by him. Although the objects that I use it do not look so beautiful or plain. I was actually do not like to praise all expressed to me. I was already know  about properties. Because we already together almost two years. The man was not easily give up the man. He tried harder to find me. On theother hand he also asked for help to female friends of our class. The girl was my classmate. When leaving for college, I always pick her up. We are close friends. Wherever, we always went together. When the prayer time, eating into the library, the cafeteria and to certain places.
          Embarrassed again when I was at his side. I want normal in react. Almost every day I always watch it. Whatever, I do  things that I have, HP, Laptop, and almost all of it is always checked.
          But at that time, I pretended not to know things are strange. Almost all of my friends knew there was something weird between me and him. What can I say, yes I am also confused, upset and all the mixed feelings with the feelings of others. In addition, many friends who care and attention to me. When I was sad, happy, a lot of friends who comfort me.
          After that, I went through. But my days are getting dark. Many problems come and go. Ranging from family problems, friend problems. I believe all the problems that come up will make me more mature to react to it. And I continue to pray to Allah SWT, so that all affairs has finished soon.

6

Problem

          One thing that remained volatile in his own mind is my best friend suddenly hates me. But for no apparent reason. But I am still trying to figure out. Finally, I know these things. And it turns out the reason it was true. He liked the man a friend of my classes. But the man did not like it. He liked me. After knowing these things I would man far. Because the man I was a nobody. I consider him as a casual friend.

7

Started of Loves

          But gradually I began to feel the same. It turned out that although it is still new, but little by little taste of it began to grow. When the sense that my heart actually began to appear frequently in tears. I remember someone who was special to me. A person is a friend when the first elementary school or in other words my past. But I still remember it. Because he is my best friend when it used to be. And once he is encouragement in my life. Although we are physically separated but our minds are bound to each other. And we have made the decision for long-distance relationship. And we each keep our own feelings. We are committed to not dating anyone. Our relationship became close friends. But we can not fool our own feelings.

Actually, we love each other. But it was our secret. And we still decided to become friends.Well, on the other hand a friend of one of my classes actually getting closer to me. He was always concerned about being with me, even though I do not care with him and cool. Sometimes I think possibly, I was too selfish. At the time I was away but he still tried to approach me. He had do anything for happy in my life.

8

In First Semester

One day my laptop could not be opened. And I asked to my friend from my classes TBI-C. His name Nubi fields. He was good at the deep of computer problems. Actually, I will  fix else. But since Nubi fields can repaired my computer. Finally, I asked him for help me. He want to help me.When that time of year semester exams. He waited for me outside in the class. With great patience he waited for me outside of class to complete. After that, he called me and handed my laptop. I was very happy. Because my laptop was back to normal soon improved.

9

Grandmother’s House

          One day Nubi fields to send a message to me. The message said that the laptop was  repaired. And the computer already to use again. I was glad to hear it. But this time, I was not in my house. I was in Kediri. I went to my grandmother's house. Then, I was reply the message. But, I can not pick up the laptop. Because, I was holiday in my grandmother’s house just a few days. That day, I must taken my laptop in the Nubi’s house fields.
           The semester was breaks expired. I am getting ready to come my beloved house. I get ready and clean clothes and other supplies. It is time to go home, I said goodbye to my grandmother. Then, I left cheek and I always kissed by my grandmother. Not only kissing my grandmother, but also older cousin, aunt, uncle, brother also kissed me. I was smile visible when I remove all of my family was gone. It felt very heavy hearted to leave the family who were there.

10

Nubi’s House

          The next day, I went to take a laptop. I went with Niha. He was a friend of one class in my campus. She came from Palembang. She does not have a house in here. She was looked  for boarding-lodging house. I invited Niha to accompany Nubi fields take the laptop in his house . Because I was ashamed alone to go there. Niha willing to accompany me to go Nubi’s fields.
          Arriving in the Nubi’s house fields, we was welcome. Niha and me sat in front of his Nubi’s shop fields. Our conversation talking about a laptop. Nubi fields describes document the contents from the laptop. Nubi fields also change my office word example: microsoft word and microsoft word 2010. Not only change the microsoft word, but also he added norton antivirus. After a long conversation, we decided to leave his house. Before I leave Nubi’s house, I was  immediately paid him some money from machine. Then we go home together.
          After that, I deliver Niha for his brother to come home. Because his brother lived in kalidawir. I drove straight Niha’s house . It was already late afternoon. I arrived home at 06:00 p.m.

                                               

11

In Campus

          On his morning, I was in campus. Nubi fields the computer expert was asked about my computer. He always concerned about my computer. Adding anti virus in my computer, sometimes borrowed my computer in his house. My computer is on loan until the battery runs out. In that time, I worked some a paper. And the task must be completed immediately. But I was very lucky. There were several groups that carry my laptop. Finally, we worked with existing computer group. Finally, we was finished duty satisfactorily.

12

A Computer was problem

          One year later, my computer is more problematic.I asked to Nubi fields  for help to fix my laptop. Actually, I was embarrassed him. Since it was the second time, I always asked for support it. Without thinking a long time, I spoken directly to him or her to improve and add anti-virus on my laptop. I meet direct Nubi fields and check my computer. It was true my  computer problems. Many viruses was present in the computer. Nubi fields offered to help me. He wants to installed my computer and add anti virus to me. Without thinking so long, I was willing to accept help him fields. At the moment, Nubi wanted to bring my computer to his house. But I forbid it. Because a lot of work to be finished. But he was understands about it. I explained to him, that my computer would leave after  my tasks has finished. And I will given my computer to Nubi in the next day.

13

Complicated

          Nubi fields came to meet me the next day. He wanted to bring his house and fix my computer. When I want to give up the computer, Suddenly one of my friend angry with me. My friend named Nulik. I was very confused. I think it is time for a moment. Without think so long, I know the reason why he was suddenly angry with me. Apparently, Nulik like Nubi fields. Once I knew it, I took the computer back from the hands of Nubi fields. I did not fix his  computer. At the  moment, I was go far Nubi fields. Nubi fields but still try to approach me. He still wanted to take the computer out of my hands to fix the computer. Because, after  knew that Nulik like Nubi fields. Nubi fields but not at all. But it still does not care Nulik Nubi fields. But precisely Nubi fields provoking me, and my computer is still brought to his house. Whatever he did for the sake of  happiness.
          Nubi fields my eyes it was nice, he was always concern. Nubi fields always concerned about weared my clothes. Although, I did not ask for help to me, he always offered. But, I would often refuse its support. Sometimes I feel sorry for him or her. And the second time fixing my laptop, he did not want to give my money. Previously, Nubi had been told if free without charging a penny from me. And if people are repairing a broken laptop or install it always pays. I know and understand it. There must be something behind it. But I pretended not to know. When I knew it, I was thought to have first taste again later.
We often meet in the campus. Probably from a habit we often sit together to him or her, joking, talking, that is the main cause. Maybe there is a term that calls Java "Witing Tresno Jalaran Soko Kulino".

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Jealous

          At the time I started to get closer to Nubi fields. Suddenly there was a problem that came to me. Maybe this is a minor problem. But if not finished possible would be great. Nulik was jealous with me. He was jealous of class president. I am astounded by Nulik. All people who want him close to me always jealous. I just be patient and just in react. Every time I sit down with Nulik, he tried to avoid me. Sometimes my heart feels hurt by it. He was really outrageous. I meet someone new this time, that I know character is so rotten.
Jealousy and envy everyday she was jealous with me. Beginning of an issue that arises, when we entered the mid-semester, which is half of 4. All courses are taught is to use a new meterial. The book also taught to use a new book. Well, one day there is a lecturer in the morphology of class. The lecturer asked with secretary for copies some books. The Treasurer told the class to record class president. Of the 35 children, half of which have not been paying less. Though the book is to be used. And fotocopy the books almost complete. One problem from fotocopy from the book is that the money less. Many of my friends who had not paid dues. Then the class president to borrow money to me. He invited me to take a photocopy. But I turned them down. Finally we got together from the stairs leading to the park to take the money in the bike seat. After that, I immediatelylent to the head of the class. Then, I went to the cafeteria for lunch. At one o'clock already handed photocopied. All my friends happy. Because difitokopi good book cover.

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In Classroom

          The next day was Monday. We all entered at the second. The first lesson is qualitative. Next is the teaching profession. Once it breaks. At the break all my friends out of college, have a go do boarding, there are foraging, except me, Niha, class president, and Nulik remain in the classroom. We are busy fiddling with laptops in the classroom. Four of us were joking banter. The joke jokes suddenly Nulik out the words that are not pleasing to the ear by ear. He quipped to me. But I received it with the usual innuendo. But it turns out he's really serious about my quip. I slandered, when I  asked to accompany a copy of class president yesterday. The point of what those words really. I was so confused. When I walk alone with my friends, all of a suddenly he left me to walk together.
Of events that I can conclude that Nulik really jealous of me. Nulik like the class president. But he did not want to talk frankly. He just hates me for no reason is not clear. After learning this I far away class president. So Nulik no longer angry and jealous of me.

16

Going To The Beach

          I was very happy. Of the event, my friends invitedwent to the beach. And that's the special people involved. Who go there are Ami, Hera, Kefi, Mu'im, Ninin, Maulin, Difa. Unless Nulik not asked to go to the beach. We left the beach Nyoro together. We were riding a motorcycle. I passed the road very sheer all. We shared the photos. That was my first time going to the beach. He currently task very much in campus, but we try to remove it all. Cooling the brain with a walk to the beach.
          After that, Nulik no longer with me jealous. Problem had enough. And I am very grateful to my friends who always trouble with me. At the time, I was glad my friends their always there around me. They always entertain me. For the first time, I found a very good friend like them. I have a family that my friends. Thank you very much my beloved friends. Perhaps this sense I say thank you very much. I can not express directly to you. But one day if you read this piece of short stories, can represent from my feelings. Yes, although the short story is not as good as a reliable author.

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Conflict with Nulik Again

          Time passed, the day by the day, hour to change minutes. One by one conflicts with Nulik reappear. Nulik began to disturb my composure. She was jealous of me again. He was jealous when Nubi fields sit close to me. There is really no need envy. Nubi fields actually approached me that he would fix my laptop is broken. That reason was real.

          At first glance this little story did not stoped here. Maybe, this is his net twists of life. Sometime I am happy, sometimes I  was sadness. Well maybe this is my destiny. Suffering came and went. Only patience can strengthen this fragile heart. And I believe in every exam that I would encounter a silver lining. Why would a dear friend who has been with me, do not like to see me happy. She always throwing pebbles into my heart. So that my heart was broken.Very concerned with my best friend. But I do not want to think Nulik. Why should I think of people who always ruin my life. I better leave it alone, and I was very lazy to converse with her. But Nulik was too out of line boundaries. Nulik selling from behind. He liked the Nubi fields. I liked the fact Nubi fields. As I know Nulik like Nubi fields. I was far away Nubi fields. But though I stay away from him, Nubi fields he remained a tireless chasing me. The more I stay away, the more he is more near with me. That Nubi fields. I was far away Nubi fields solely for our own good as well. It means that Nulik not hate me. I do not want our friendship apart divorced just because the problem is small and not significant.
          Though my heart too sick, because selling true with my friend. Actually, if it is felt from the depths of the deepest, my heart has been crushed and smelted, even as the glass shattered into pieces. May be not restored. But even so, I do not want to seem weak in front of friends. I want to look strong in front of them.

18

Study in the classroom

          One day the time course of education is communication. Pak dozen assignment. His job was told to make a drama, poetry, singing, etc. Depending on student choice. The task was given to each groups. Each group is required to display their performence in front of the class. Educational communications group consisted of eight groups. Lecturer scrambles all groups. So that other groups can move forward in turn. When the drama begins and teachers already in the classroom. I am still fotocopy listening outside the campus. One of my groups friend send a message to me. I quickly told class, because the drama turn immediately appointed a group of eight professors Agus. And the printer was broken. So I was late going to the class. But I was thrilled. Arriving there has not been called group of eight professors. So I can take a rest in classroom.

19

Performance

           At ten minutes later, professors Agus called fourth group to move forward. They have performance some of  drama and song. They played drama very good. I can laugh to saw their drama. At that moment my heart was sad.
Henceforth call the group of eight professors. I was shaking all the time. Because the drama we are in disarray. I am still not ready for a half. Yes, how else I would. That was a liability. Ready or not ready to be served. When I went to the fore the class, I feel excited. This rarely happens to me. Embarrassment, hesitation jumbled into one. One thing is rare to me. Though I am often in front of the class presentation. But that sense of excited rare. And when advanced in front of the class seemed a bit nervous, after it lost nervousnya.
No longer, I think we started the drama group. But I am a little confused with my drama show. Hope is understandable, because for his play too sudden, just one day, then the next day are displayed. Yesterday,  it was able to memorize sekenerio was thrilled. Our group only shows the drama and comedy a little bit there. At the end of a drama, we sing a song together. The song was chosen friend of mine. My friends who pick on the song. The song was titled "Ya Sudahlah” creations from Bondan Prakoso. When we started to sing, my tears suddenly drops. This rarely happens to me. For the first time in my life and I can sing songs. That I sing explored. So that the eyes are not strong then I cry. So, I could not hold back your emotions. To the extent that when I said very difficult. My mouth feels heavy to sing that song. So that was hard to sing with my other friends. I only sing in a voice softly. This emotion comes as I am reminded of one premises. Which is in my past when the school first.
It is very unfortunate. And we have training and trying to look as closely as possible. And trying to look good in front of the class. But the results are not satisfactory. We just pray alone, so opaque lecturers give good value to our group. But it is not as easy as I imagined. What happened in front of the class is not-okay, maybe this is going nets again.
          Moment in my mind feel silent. My little heart is as if wondering to myself. I do not suspect there was something that happened to me. I do not suspect there was something that happened to me. Nubi fields turned out to really like me. I was not sure before. Because previously there was never any sense at all I said to him. I just think of it as just a friend. I actually started to feel when the first semester. But the longer the Nubi fields closer to me. Every chance he was looking for a place to want to sit with me. I understand this is a new fourth semesters. I just found out after she often annoys me, singing next to me, and doingstrange things. I actually understand the meaning of behavior Nubi fields. But I am cool, pretending not to know.
          Over time, we began to know each other very closely with the Nubi fields. Honestly feeling like it was when we were growing up half of the past. Since the first half ago, I started to have feelings of love with her. The feeling was there when he first approached me. But I hide my feelings to him. I was not going to say. Since I was a woman. So, yes he is waitingfor the one who first say.
          This beginning, I and my friends talking in the classroom. In the classroom there are six people. We chatted while waiting for the turn of the hour. I have four of them sat in a chair with a conversation together. Suddenly, Nubi field sat down near me. He borrowed the HP that I hold. Nubi fields issued a question to me. The first time out and the questions that he addressed to me is "what you already have a girlfriend yet? The second question "Do you ever walk anywhere? The place where I do you go from so many place? That is my recollection. To another question that I forgot. Because it has been almost two years. Nubi fields seems to want to know more about me personally. To the extent that Nubi fields close friend told me to sleep at my house. Of all the questions that I answer them honestly what it is. And he also said that he wanted to played to my house, but hei s riding a bycycle. I think that is no problem for me. He go to in my house with bycycle it is OK.

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Aware

          Oh Dear God, how stupid I am. I just realized this time. If it turns out he liked me long enough. Oh Dear God forgive me. Is there in front of my eyes can not see it. While someone who abstrac in my eyes, I always hopes. I brought the wrong people before the right person. God is almighty and tossing and turning the hearts of men. It is true, dating is never where. I had not find him, but he come alone to me.

VALUES

The values about the  short story is we do not arrived. Someone who not real loved with us. Because if we arrived someone not real we can broken heart. We did not know if he or she have boy or girl friend with other. And we must know love that in near with us, not someone who love far away. And if we love someone, do not save in heart. But we must said love with someone. We can get the true love, if we over effort. Then we get dreams come true.

By :   Miftahul Aziz Zamzami